One week to go...

One more week until the World Championships in Belgium and two weeks to the

Ms. & Mr. Universe in Hamburg.

These will be two intensive weeks, not only physically but also emotionally.

I'm ready and excited to participate in these competitions and to stand on the international stages.

My body feels good, and the changes are visible, which makes me proud of my training process and the goals I have achieved. What had to be done has been done.

Everything for the trip and the care here at home is organized and the flights are booked.

The self-sewn bikinis (in all possible colours) to the matching high heels are nicely lined up on the dresser. The dress was picked up from the dry cleaner’s and the jewelry is also glittering and sparkling. The fine tuning is in progress and I'm enjoying the work on the details of my body like hairstyles and fingernails, to highlight my femininity despite muscles and stress.

I am dreaming with open eyes and enjoy all these images of the last months and weeks that are playing like a movie. I can see the day when I've decided to stand on the stage and compete again… I see myself; a mother of two beautiful children, who had the uncanny desire to bring her body back to full potential and everything that needed to be done to prepare it.

To cross borders, to be curious about what a body and a will are capable to achieve.

A woman whose eyes sparkled and glittered at the thought of this dream and plan.

I see my age as a number, the first wrinkles on the face and the skin my belly, which is no longer quite so tight after two pregnancies. I see the fatigue of a mother, the 1000 tasks in the household but above all, I can be seen laughing and smiling on my journey.

I can feel all of the hours that I’ve worked out, the cracks on my hands, the pain and the physical boundaries that I touched with tears in my eyes.

I know many people that haven’t understood my comeback. I am grateful for each one of them because they motivate me even more to achieve my goal.

And then I see the people who supported me with words or small actions and have motivated me to never give up. You are wonderful!

I see myself in the evening when everything around me has gotten quiet, focusing on my goals. My mind analyzes my achievements and I ask myself what I can do even better to better achieve my goal.

I am on this path and started to build a new network, to let people who inspire me into my life.

To welcome them and to have great conversations. To be brave.

I started to break gently out of my comfort zone as a mother. Level up step by step.

I want to show my kids that everything in life is possible. Show them that it is important to have goals in life and to keep track of them. To believe in oneself and give everything to achieve your goals. Nothing in life will be given us for free, we have to realize our goals with a lot of work.

… and I’m living MY dream ...